Thoughts on God’s provision.
It took me a long time to believe that God cared about me, individually. Does he really care what we do, or about our comfort? Modeling. What do we as parents care about for our children? Career, no not really; who they marry, maybe; getting their way after lying or whining, not at all!
As I think about both Biblical and life examples, I’m convinced that God is most concerned about our character. If our character, integrity, and love for Him are in place, I believe He is more than happy to make us comfortable–to bless us with “the good life”. What I don’t understand is why He gives us so many chances.
I am recording this post because I fantasize about looking back on it as the last time I financially struggled. My wife was kind enough to remind me that as long as she has known me, we’ve been $40k in debt…. at a time when I’m at a record low income for the year.
I choose to think on and to post here stories of God’s provision. Remembering that He has always pulled me through. Being self employed requires a lot of trust, but also a balance of doing my part. Where the line is, is hard to figure out. I have walked into a lot of businesses this week to introduce myself and look for work, but have gotten nothing. In the past, I freak, I prospect, and then work dumps on me in a more-than-I-can-handle fashion. I go from having all kinds of time to waste to wishing I could find time to go look at the ocean. Feast or famine.
Sept last year was the beginning of the best income I have ever made. I was able to pay my bills ahead, reduce debt, and make a bunch of home improvements. What I failed to do was to put away for August!
Last August, I was on a family vacation (my last paid time off), and a large contract came my way that has been the staple income of the past year. It could turn around tomorrow, and I prefer to relax back into the arms of God and believe that it will. I’ll keep me posted!